I totally screwed up my Saturday presentation and I’m not looking back. Not 1 family member liked my part of the novel I posted up on the Facebook Page. This just means one thing. War.
The war is the war with self.
I have to survive these few months from now till September 2017 and beyond.
Let’s get out there and fight!
Without training? Are you crazy? You’ll die.
Yesterday’s Rainbow trophy was a fluke. It got taken back and replaced with a 3000+ NikeFuel points. I don’t want to be a fluke. Live in the world where I may seem like a king. But in reality, I am just a slave. I have worked out the time to get to rainbow. I need at least 6 hours of exercise to reach that level. Supernova is at 8 hours. Probably going to hit Rainbow and SuperNova once a week. But for now, I am aiming for Ice. Which is 4000 NikeFuel Points. About 3 hours of exercise time.
2 days of work has hit 15.8 hours. Averaging 8 hours a day. Not to panic. Keep moving up till I hit 18.5 which is the highest. I can go higher and higher till 20 a day. Let’s do this!!!
I am seeing Miss Nithya tomorrow. Going to school early by bus. It’s going to be a wonderfuL Wednesday.
Today was great to spend time with mom. Work starts at 12AM on Wednesday.
GAME ON!! Or what B would say… BRING IT!
Crap! Slept 9 hours today. I did my math. I can only sleep 4 hours a day from Tuesday onwards. I will do my best. I will do what I can. Just don’t beat myself up if the standard is not met. I know I must not give excuses. But I will not beat myself up and think that it will help.
Today I clocked in 10 hours of work. Real work actually. At least 90% efficient. Am trying to get as close to 100% as possible.
Went for my first Zumba class. Stayed 30 minutes and got out of there due to exhaustion.
2 hours of exercise and I hit a Rainbow trophy. That is triple the daily goal of 6000 NikeFuel points. I didn’t know I could get that many points. I did. That makes 20,000 points not that scary a goal. The highest trophy of the Nike FuelBand.
It’s 1AM on Day 27 now writing this post for Day 26. The Reading Room downstairs is swell. There are people there too. I won’t be that lonely then. Zali is well and his baby is growing up well. Thank God.
Day 26 was productive and I’m starting Day 27 with lots of hope.
Thanks for reading. God bless.
This day was as great as I hoped it would be. Got up and brought my MacBook for service. The camera is busted and the screen has problems. Though I didn’t seem to notice the screen problem, they said it can be fixed. Coating issues.
I was able to go to church with the LRT (train) today. It’s my first time visiting a church by train and I’m very grateful for that. I’ll be going to church by train now every week.
Day 26 marks the beginning of Project Great Balls of Fire. That is all I want to say for now. End date is February 14 2017. As the days pass, it will be slowly revealed what’s up with that project.
I’m going to be very happy when the Project is over. Then I can start a new project. Start again.
I have been taking my protein shakes and BCAA for a week. There is already results and I guess if I train for the next 3 years like this, something is bound to happen.
I am now with Dr Wii working at a Coffea Coffee. The place is loud. Everyone seems to be talking a lot. The prices here are exorbitant. But still tons of people come. The interior is lovely. I will come here maybe once or twice a month. There are better seating areas. But they are taken.
Today was extremely productive. The work was more like play. I tell myself I will write 10 words for the day. When I start writing, I find it exciting. So I write and in the end, I write not 10 words, but 500. Things that you can do to trick yourself to work. I guess I know how to work now. After 5 years of working but not working, I found out the trick. I hope I am not too late.
Tomorrow is Sunday. I am going to work on Sundays too. Maybe one day when I make it, I won’t have to. Or I will continue doing so, because I am so excited about work. I wanted to bring my MacBook to fix tomorrow. But I have church and I don’t really know how to fit the trip to fix. I still have to go to the gym too. So I guess fixing tomorrow. :(((
It’s a Sunday and I should rest. Even though I say I have a lot of time to make, B is gone and the B dream is dead, I still continue working like mad, or even more than before.
Funny… didn’t I say I have forgotten the B dream and take it easy? Don’t think. Just get to work!
I am at the gym. I love it here. Somehow, I am going to love it even more. This is the hangout place for the rest of the year. It has AC. Has free drinks and Internet. I think I cannot ask for more.
Zali at 6PM.
Tonight, I am sleeping early as I have been asked to do wardening tomorrow at church. I have been rostered as a regular. It helps C and that is all I can do.
Loving life. Loving work. If I want to sleep, all I got to to do is take my meds. That will knock me out cold.
I just started using SnapChat. My username is voh81.
I have got to prioritize as there is too much to do for the next 15 days before the Book Club event. Prepping the basics for 2 launches and 1 preview. BFF has said that he cannot make it. But that’s fine. He has work and I can’t ask too much from him. But he better owe me.
I have worked 18 hours yesterday and continue to stay on course to do so for the whole of this month. I am very happy with my progress and think that if I continue on this streak, I can possibly move mountains.
On Thursday, everywhere I looked was an attractive woman. I have got to keep my defenses and walls as high as I can. I don’t know what am I waiting for. My next life maybe. When I am not a writer living a lonely and reclusive life. Mom was mad when I said I am not going to see anyone but work. Sorry mom. I am just doing it for my own good. Too busy to be in a relationsip. Too busy to think about anything related to females.
Not going to chase money or girls from now on.
Day 23 12:25AM Update
I did everything on the to do list yesterday and didn’t pile anything else on it. So I had quite some free time. I barely know what I did, other than tweet, go walk around. Oh… I saw BoA’s doppelganger. Like seriously O M G! She was walking out of Subang Parade. I passed her by. Then I went get a power cable for my camera. When I was going home, she was walking back. OMG! I saw her and went into hiding. With a closer look, she isn’t BoA. How can BoA be in Subang Parade? I am not crazy. Stop!! Just stawwwp!!
It’s a beautiful day in my dream world. The outside is not so beautiful, raining away. But still, it is a good day. I have shelter. Am dry and safe. Food in the fridge. Water to drink. Friends Season 1 on TV. Like I said… it is a good day. Maybe even perfect.
Today Operation iAmPossible Day 2. There’s so much to do. Slept 1-hour last night and super awake. I better get some work done like now and report again tomorrow.
Better cut this blog post short and get back to work.
After 12+ hours of sleep, dreaming of a MacBook that was falling apart and Mr. Choot was in it too, I finally got up. Today, I remembered to have lunch and was offered a Red Velvet cake. That turned out to cost me a bomb. Never again.
I am beginning my work with this post as warm up.
The Taylor’s Book Club event is taking place on October the 22nd. About 16 days left till the event. I am doing a lot of things for launch. Of course, I’ll keep everything a secret until that day. Nobody knows what is going to happen. That is the awesome part. Nobody knows. Skin has been flaking like mad after doing some planning during lunch. I think it is a good sign. At least I know I am pushing myself.
Still trying to keep myself calm enough that I don’t panic and go amok, like the Home Alone kid.
Mindfulness. Breathe Neo. Breathe!!!
FOO FOO FOO FOO
Last night, I came in contact with evangelists. They were very nice and good people that think of my salvation. To try and recruit me and join their church so that I can be saved. These people are a blessing to us all and I admire their courage to go out and save as many people as they can. I still have my own beliefs and though it may seem that I haven’t been saved, I do pray that I will continue to be a force for good. That I too will somehow do something like them, to make the world a better place.
I am crazy. The delusions have returned watching Jimmy Fallon. I think I have been through hell the past few weeks, that somehow my brain has activated its ability to try and make me feel a lot better. My situation is so bad, that my brain has created things that seem real to me. I hear guests talking about me and giving me messages. But I do know what is real and what is not. It put me on meds 16 years ago, when watching David Letterman. It is happening again. I stopped watching Jimmy Fallon for a few months now because I fear I’d hear things related to me. Last Saturday, I turned on Jimmy Fallon and the messages were more real than ever.
I have work to do and if I need to get my brain put it into overdrive, I just have to turn on Jimmy Fallon. If the messages are still there, it will kick my brain into that state.
I know what is real and what is not. Even if it is real, it doesn’t mean a thing. Other than the fact that I am a joke.